1/29/14 (Day before Spring Semester)

oh dear God,
tomorrow is the first day of spring semester.  I am gonna die.  i'm so nervous, God.  I feel like i'm gonna fail!  but i know you're here with me.  God, please reassure me and HELP ME!  I can't do it without you.  ESPECIALLY chemistry and botany.  Lord, i have sosososososos many labs.  i don't know how i'm going to find the time to do homework!!  please help me to maximize the time i do have and study efficiently and effectively.  Oh Lord, help me please.  i know i complained about people thinking i'm smarter than i really am, but i was being so foolish.  Lord, I'm just thankful that you made me so successful last semester.  i'm upset that they're giving ME the glory.  You deserve it allll.  oh Jesus, faithful savvior.  great are you.  help me to remember that you are greater than all.  even when i'm lonely and afraid, you are there.  you are more than enough for me.  Jesus, help me through this semester.  i'm holding on to you.  there's no way i can do it on my own.  not with this schedule.  Jesus, walk with me.  may i walk with you?  will you lead me in your path?  we always ask you to come with us, but Lord, we should be asking if we can go with you!  Holy Spirit, please guide me.  i am unworthy of you, Jesus, yet you invite me in anyway.  build my trust in you through this semester.  heck, if i make it through tomorrow, then my trust in you will be greater!
God, i'm afraid to go to my chem lab tomorrow.  i don't know who will want to be my lab partner.  i'm afraid someone i can't count on will, or that no one will!  please guide me (and the other person) to find a lab partner who i will work well with and learn a lot with.  help me to be a good lab partner to whoever you chose.  help us to build each other up and learn through each other.  help me and my partner to learn how to be good chemists.
And Jesus, be with me during my EDU140 class.  help it to go really well.  help me to bond with the other students (same with my chem lab!!) and to grow lasting relationships.  help me to form a good relationship with my professor, too.  may i help him learn how to teach better, and may you use me to fit the needs of the other students, as well.  use me, God, in the lives of the fellow students (and staff) here.
finally, God, i want to mention Katie's Bible study lesson today.  God, I really am discontented with myself.  i take everything you've given me -- my body, my mind, my personality and relationships -- totally for granted.  help me to be content with everything you've placed in my life -- even myself.  teach me to just enjoy what i have and not care too much about what others have.  i often covet other personalities, and not only is it sinful, but it's harmful to me and wrong.  it's like a slap in your face, and i'm sorry, God.  forgive me and help me to enjoy how you've made me.
to you be the glory and honor forever, Lord Jesus.  AMen.