God, help me to get over this "jealousy monster".  half of me doesn't want to get over it, just get revenge.  but I know that that wouldn't help, but just deepen the problem, hurt feelings, and make everything a lot worse.  but God, ...........I need help!!!!!  I am in trouble.  there's something inside me that just doesn't want to forgive or forget what happened, and it really isn't that big of a deal, anyway, otherwise i'd just confront Haley and tell her.  but I feel like I can't because it's kinda stupid.  are my hormonal levels off-balance?  cause I feel like that must be the problem.  well, either way, help me to treat Haley and her sister (and Justine) as kindly as ever and to be the best friend I can be.  enter me holy spirit and help me.  I have been feeling enormously rebellious, so help me to get over that, too, God.  HELP.  SOS.  my rebellion suffocates me.